wants and needs...

I'll take the wants...

I want to kick it old school....

I want the song to fill the air...

I want to stop the greed, pride and lust...

I want to cook dinner...

I want to watch a movie and share a jacket...

I want to read a book and sleep on a shoulder...

I want to bore you with my silence...

I want to your face to light up at the sight of me...

I want you to hate me it hurts...

I want you.

Not need.

For now.

Over a two-piece chicken meal

Around 10:30pm, my sister and I decided to have some late dinner delivered. I've also been craving for Jollibee's Chicken Joy. So I got a two-piece meal.

I've been on a constant Sisa mode for the past few days and I know that it's driving my friends crazy. (Hey you guys are as crazy as me noh!)

Over these two heavenly leg part Chicken Joys, I realized the following:

1. I'm really good with theories, especially this one I'm preaching to everyone: GUYS ARE THE NEW GIRLS. Why?
- Their "pakipot"
- Their clingy
- Their too sensitive
- Their moody
- I keep forgetting the 5th one, but there's a 5th justification.
So far, I've received nothing but nods of agreement and violent positive reactions (most of the time accompanied by swearing). A guy friend even confessed that yes, he's a girl in all these "traits/justifications."
ANYARE?
Is this because of the global warming? Japan's earthquake that kind of moved some plates? Or is it because 2012 is nearing?
I have no idea what's happening but so far no one has contested this observation.

2. Coming from my previous entry.. "If you could have what you want, would you really want it?"
My answer is still I don't know... which brings me to my argument.... This "chaos," maybe is what I want at the moment because I don't know if I want to go to the next room. Or like what I said... my attention span for all types of chaos is very very short. So.. in about a few weeks, we're going to back to regular programming.

----- i just saw this draft and just decided to post it... Regardless if its unfinished.

The most inconvenient truth

"if you can get what you want, would you really want it?"

truth is: i'm leaning towards NO.

Coming from Al Gore's, "The Inconvenient Truth," I have a question.. Isn't the truth really inconvenient in the first place?

We babble about the truth setting us free but at the back of our minds, we all wish to live in the comfort of a lie.

Right now... whatever the truth is, I frankly don't know how to go about it. So my solution is: make up my own truth.. hold on to it... and believe its true.

As one of the Nazi propagandist said, "if you repeat a lie often enough, it becomes the truth."

And so... God forbid, let's start walking away.

Birthday Blues

A joke from a college blockmate:
Knock knock
Who's there?
Buff.
Buff who?
Buff bububuff buff buff Happy Birthday to you!

K. Tnx. Noted.

It's my birthday month this May. Although my birthday isn't up until the last week, I feel somehow... serene.

What the eff right? Probably the last words you'd expect from me. Yes. Di bagay.

Cut the long mumblings short: I'm really learning how to wrestle with my demons.

Okay enough dilly dally.

Today, I managed to make a surprise for one of the bosses in my group. I can't help but feel so excited and I just can't hide it... i know i know i want you. Okay nasobrahan. haha

I'm also cooking up something for another friend. I'm begging you right now to cross your fingers on this one. Are you crossing your fingers? Sure? Both of them? Left and right? Okay. Thanks!

Then it got me thinking... let's say... let's just say I also am entitled to a surprise... I don't think anyone could give me on. I don't even know exactly what I want for my birthday. (Although... ang blog ko before this is my wishlist haha) But you know what you really WANT. Like, genie kind of want that you'd wish for it. Other people like food, some their favorite band, others alcohol (amen to those)... But me, I don't know really, quarter life crisis much?

Let me see, if I'm getting married.. I'd like Apo Hiking Society.

If I'm married, a quiet getaway with my husband.

If I have kids, just to wake up to them watching tv on my bed.

If I'm a Lola... Probably liempo... you know how old people aren't allowed to eat pork. hahaha

If I'm single and turning 25.... hhhmm.. I don't know really.

You know how other people make a big fuss about birthdays?

About 4-5 years ago, my ex bf treated me out to dinner and shopped for me the whole shebang.

After that, I spent my birthday in the hospital because another ex bf was suffering from.. I can't remember.

After that, I got a tiffany bracelet from my ex bf, gathered some friends and treated them to some drinks. This may I add should've been the most perfect birthday ever!!!! But when a few hours of it..I got effin' bored but of course I couldn't show it because its my freakin' birthday.  (which was actually a premonition)

And so we move on to this year....  Zzzz.....Not even tickets to Kylie Minogue can make this girl jump for joy for my birthday.

Maybe world peace?
Spiritual Enlightenment?
Yoga?
Burlesque Classes?!
Getaway?
Sleep?
House and Lot?

Yes I'm whining. Whine.. rhymes with wine... hhmmm.... not bad not bad.

Okay, world peace na lang. :)) (cliche)

I just noticed how cliche rhymes with touche! Interesting.

I'm going to stop rhyming now.

Haha

Oh yeah.... I want to start writing again. Like write write. Can you bear with me? Yeah? Yeah! (Kinda talking to myself because no one really reads this.)

Oooopppsss Sisa moment. :))

Quarter Life Birthday Wish List

More than a month to my birthday I'd like to share my wish list with you. Just so you know what will make me happy on my birthday. Yes, I'm giving you that burden. Haha Kidding!

As some of my close friends know, I'm very easy to please. Yes, mababaw ako. Hahaha

Soooo.... Are you ready? Okay!

Let's start with basic human needs.

1. What's a birthday without a cake?!? I don't have a sweet tooth but cheesecakes are my weakness. :)

New York Chocolate Chip Brown Cookie Dough Cheesecake by Chelsea

Brooklyn Cheesecake by Borough

2. What's a kiddie party without ice cream?!!??! (saan galing yung kiddie party?) For those nights when I'd rather stay in.. relax... wachaamobieee.

Fic's Pistachio Ice Cream

3. Actually, this is my favorite dessert before cheesecakes. :) I could die eating this and I'd be happy.

Creme Brulee

4. Sparkling Lambrusco from Marks and Spencer. Signs of aging? Whine este wine ang attack.

But if you prefer giving me this.... Hindi naman ako choosy. Paki samahan na rin ng Coke. Thanks!

Black Label

5. If you want to take me out for dinner here are your options:

Gayuma ni Maria

Because they have the best croissant evaaah!

Pwede ring Four Cheese Pizza ng Green Tomato, Charlie's Grind and Grill, etc. etc. :)


Now let's move on to the non-edibles.

6. Carmex Lip Balm. Any flavor would do but I prefer cherry. Haha

7. Lappie bag. My laptop bag badly needs a replacement. I have a 13 inch lappie. *wink* *wink* Nothing fancy and loud please. I prefer a shoulder bag but anything from YOU would do. CHAR! Nyahaha

Photo from Lap Dance website

8. Shock and sweat proof earphones for running. Yes, I'm TRYING to run to loose and/or tone some unwanted bulges. Please be supportive of my cause. :D

Sennheiser Adidas MX860i 

Note: Not necessarily this model but it has to be sweat proof. Hopefully it would go well with my Blackberry and Ipod. :)

8. Only a few people know that I read books. Like really read books. I made a book report for Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet when I was in 3rd grade. And I enjoyed reading Noli Me Tangere (as in the red book with bad text print).

I got addicted to the film, now I want to read it. Can I get the whole set please?

Or... a year's subscription to Time Magazine wouldn't be so bad :) Hihihi

I also have an experience category.

9. Can we watch this... please? :)

Coz I lab Brandon Boyd

Coz Adam Levine's hot

Because you all know I have the Bieber Fever. jeje

10.  Be prepared to get served!Coz I'm a frustrated Lara Croft wanabee! :))

Laser Tag

Initially, I was planning to enumerate 25 options for my 25th birthday. But halfway through it, I realized that it would be fun to have an element of surprise. :)

So yes, a surprise would be awweesssoomme. But just to get things straight, I also take cash and check and vacation packages. :)) Hahaha Kidding!

Happy Birthday to meeeehhhhh :)

Sabi sa inyo mababaw lang kaligayahan ko eh. :)

One Last Time vs. Second Chance

Would you rather have one last moment with him/her?

"Sure I can accept we're going nowhere but one last time let's go there..." Paulo Nutini's Last Request

or.. gather up the courage to ask for another chance?

Upon watching the video of Paulo Nutini,  I included dancing on the grass with the sprinklers on at night in my bucket list. :)

Gaga over Cream Dory

I've never been a fan of eating fish but when I discovered Cream Dory... it was heaven! Instead of using meat sometimes, I use cream dory. Ever since I watched episodes of Junior Masterchef Australia, I wanted to cook and cook and cook... But then again, most of the time the laziness kicks in and I end up having a double cheeseburger delivered from Mcdo.

 I'm crossing my fingers that one of these days I would get to cook.... 

Cocoa Crusted Dory

Deep Fried Dory with Cheese Sauce

Would you like to taste it? Haha Cross your fingers it's even edible. :))